I've been working on data research of Korean local councils reaction to climate change for few days. There're not so many things done yet, that means there's few reference, so it was not really easy to check each single thing to form a report. It took me such a long time to make few tables.
Meanwhile, I, of course, watched movie and read a book: the more work is piled, the more compelling to do those; sometimes stayed up whole nights to read books under the crazy condition. Yeah, I'm not rational at all in that way.

I didn't expect what the series of films and books are about; they're chosen by the posters, covers, and maybe their sound tracks. However, strangely, at the end they are turned out to be all about loneliness and solitude of life ; general humanbeings' either certain genuine artists.
Finally, I found myself thrilled with those.

I think of life after this year: What I'm up to either where I'm heading for.
Of course, it's wiser to stick my nose into today's life rather than dreaming of tomorrow. Well, that's why it's called a dream,though, huh?

Nowdays, I have more and more doubt if I can bear to mingle with people around me then. Can I? Could I?
Am I a little coward?

Yeah, I'd better take a shower and work on the paper again.
It's a cloudy weekend expecting rain in the late afternoon.
Maybe, a beer would be great for the end of the day.

Javier Angel Encinas Bardem

Saturday

I had a lunch with my dad at Gangnam in the afternoon.

There're tons of things to do but strangely I wasn't chased by them

though I should've but wandering for nothing.

Coming back, I finished Movie, The Sea Inside;

there's only 15mins length of it left.

Once, checked what books I should read and what data I should search for

but put everything behind.

A bowl of crap intant soup was ready for dinner and some bread.

The second movie, No Country for Old Men, started then

while I was struggling with the disgusting soup.

Yeah, and then... everything was started.

The man who just killed himself in the first movie,

walked to the policeman and stranglied him with the cuffs,

his damn arteries were cut and

the black blood were exploded everywhere.

I was not ready for this movie, yet. Fuck.

I've heard of the title from many friends

but haven't checked the storyline or starings at all.

Of course, it's done by the Cohens!

How dumb I was!

Firstly, it took me a while to recognise this actor,

Javier Angel Encinas Bardem as the same fucking man

from The Sea Inside finished just a quarter an hour ago.

While I was just surprised about the coincidence and

trying to calm down, he just killed everybody with this strange weapon,

well, I can't find the word for it, hell, can it be a gun or what?

looked like a fire extinguisher!

Well, that's my mistake, in deed, to forget about the brothers.

I should've remembered what they did in Fago.

They pulverized bodies spattering blood on white snow.

What's more, damn, I couldn't stand this guy, Javier Bardem, his hair style!

How could he just walk out of his bed in that stupid hair style

after his death and talk nonsense and kill everybody?

Nevertheless, He was too good!!

Shit, I need to watch more movies of this Spanish guy.

Anyway, my stomach is still funny and

my Saturday is gone by now.

Everyting is everywhere staring at me.

HECK

La Vie devant Soi (by Emile Ajar/Romain Gary)

Essays in Love (by Alain de Botton)

The Sea Inside(Mar Adentro, 2004)

The books and a film recently I read and watched.
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Recently, I've been stuck with thinking of
gamelike relations between people.
I was pretty sure I'm not so familiar with them
as games normally don't make me excited;
I hate card games, board games, computer games, etc.
I mean, the relations among people which go on,
expecting something from one another.
However, every single relation was somehow gamelike, I realized.
Oh, my God! I couldn't believe how clever people can be in that way.
I nearly became sick of it and so skeptical.

Well, but what about me? myself?
One day, I just mentioned what I was thinking of
to one of my close friends.
And, what could be his reaction?
: "You're also the same!"

Oh-oh.
Ok, I haven't been logical.
I couldn't say what was the problem to be stuck in it.
Last night, an idea came up in my head
to make things clearer all of sudden.

That's true I was also in many games like that
but now I got stuck as I'm not the one who leads the game.
The mess started from it.

I'm now involved in a couple of relation games with my colleagues
but I'm not the one who started the games.
I don't know what exactly I should expect from them
and their sweet words are often too much.
Overestimation is reflection of their need.
They need people to work with but I'm not necessarily the one.
In conclusion, I'm not really good at games
which are not led by myself.
Then, can I still insist I'm an adventurous person?

What the heck can I do for them?
what do they expect from me?

Doesn't it work friendship with them without expecting something practical?
Come on, give me a break.

I HATE complexity!

I'm telling off I'm not so clever as others: Embarrassing.

술기운이 아침까지 온 몸을 데워

식은 땀에 뒤척이다 느즈막히 눈을 떴다.
커튼을 젖혀 변함없이 뚱하게

소나무 숲을 머리에 이고 있는 언덕을 본다.

생수를 벌컥 벌컥 들이켜 갈증을 삭히고

한참을 멍하게 앉아 있다가
별것 없는 계획들이 적혀 있는 탁상달력을 한번 바라보고
지리산에서 선물 받은 cigar flower,
아침마다 용감하게 작은 꽃대를 내밀고 있는

빨간 꽃을 바라보았다.

새로운 생명이 움트는 것을 지켜보는 기쁨을

느껴보고 싶었던 이유(이런 마음이 생기다니!)로
만지작 거리고 있었더니 안겨주신 작은 화분.
흙을 새로 매꾸고 분갈이를 해야하는데 물만 한번 주고 말았다.

허기가 차오는데 도통 발걸음 움직이기 귀찮아 이러고 있다.

그러면서 문득 드는 생각.
어쩌면 이 공간에 갇혀 있는게 아닐까.
혹은
이 공간에 갇히고 싶은 건 아닐까.

햇빛을 쬐러 굳이 나가지 않더라도
해가 지기 전까지 적당히 빛이 들어오니
종일 방안에 있어도 힘들 이유가 없다.
마냥 이러고 있는게 얼마만인가.
복잡한 인간사에 섞이지 않고
정지된 화면처럼...

so far, so good.

[Publicity Material] Oil Vulnerability Index

Recently, I translated and summarzed a paper on OVI(Oil vulnerability index) of 26 oil-importing countries for a publicity material as my colleague/friend asked.

It's interesting to show how vulnerable Korea is concerning oil supply risk and market risk; it's the 2nd highest vulnerable country comparing with Philipines as the 1st highest and India as the 3rd.

Anyway, it's published in some of newspapers and on TV news today.

It was not really easy as many technical terms were completely new to me though the paper itself was not that long. Well, the first work was not too bad, huh? ;-)

This is the news article on it : http://app.yonhapnews.co.kr/YNA/Basic/article/search/YIBW_showSearchArticle.aspx?searchpart=article&searchtext=%ec%84%9d%ec%9c%a0%ec%b7%a8%ec%95%bd%ec%84%b1%ec%a7%80%ec%88%98&contents_id=AKR20080304104800004

The original paper's abstract is followed.

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Energy Policy Volume 36, Issue 3, March 2008, Pages 1195-1211

Oil vulnerability index of oil-importing countries

Eshita Guptaa,

aThe Energy and Resources Institute, Darbari Seth Block,

Habitat Place, New Delhi 110 003, India

Received 28 June 2007; accepted 13 November 2007.

Available online 15 January 2008.

Abstract

This paper assesses the relative oil vulnerability of 26 net oil-importing countries for the year 2004 on the basis of various indicators—the ratio of value of oil imports to gross domestic product (GDP), oil consumption per unit of GDP, GDP per capita and oil share in total energy supply, ratio of domestic reserves to oil consumption, exposure to geopolitical oil market concentration risks as measured by net oil import dependence, diversification of supply sources, political risk in oil-supplying countries, and market liquidity.
The approach using the principal component technique has been adopted to combine these individual indicators into a composite index of oil vulnerability. Such an index captures the relative sensitivity of various economies towards developments of the international oil market, with a higher index indicating higher vulnerability. The results show that there are considerable differences in the values of individual indicators of oil vulnerability and overall oil vulnerability index among the countries (both inter and intraregional).

Keywords: Oil vulnerability; Market risk; Supply risk

Consolation

There're few places which give me comfort.
Now, I see River Seomjin in the distance surrounded by mountain ridges peacfully.

I took a bus early in the morning from Seoul after a long converstaion with a friend and arrived here, Mt. Jiri yesterday. It took me about 5hrs including transfer a bus in Jinjoo once.
Strangely, I become very relaxed with the scenery kept changing every moment outside of a window even though it's not always comfortable for everyone to sit in a bus for long hours I understand.

One of tasks was finished and sent last night but another one is still facing a deadline. However, it's much better to focus on it here rather than somewhere in a corner of Seoul city.
It's a little pity the weather forecaster warned not to go out with the most serious yellow dust from China today. Of course, I feel better when I think Seoul would be even worse ; I remember the gloomy gray city with it.

My friend is fixing the fireplace in the living room ; I work on the papers, read books, listen to music and watch films with strong coffee and cigarettes. Then, it's not necessary to worry about things waiting for me from tomorrow for at least half a day. Meanwhile, spring is coming closer I guess.

It's all about the weekend in Mt. Jiri.